quarantined

Sorry if this isn't the correct forum for this post. I figured people that read this forum would be most likely to have something to say about it, so...

For the last 6 months or so, I haven't had a hell of a lot to do other than work, so I've been spending most of my free time stoned. I do it because I enjoy it and because I can. Most of the things I like to do (or have to do) like practicing the bass or doing laundry, etc, I have no problem doing while I'm high. Other than the problem of getting off my a$$ to actually get started, heheh.

One of my favorite things to do has always been reading. This, however, I can't stand to do while high, and that really sucks. Part of the problem is that sitting down with a book just doesn't seem like a good idea at the time. It seems like a lot of effort and it just doesn't appeal to me. But why not?? I love to read!

The other part of the problem is that when I do try to read, I just can't do it. I'll read a few sentences, stop, think about something else, read that part over, think about something else for 10 minutes, try to read a little more, and then I'll just give up and lay down and ponder something else. The same thing happens whether I'm reading fiction or non-fiction, and whether it's for pleasure or for school or something.

But I do spend a lot of time online when I'm stoned, and I spend hours reading all sorts of stuff. (Especially about the things I'm too lazy to do, like play the bass, hehe) My mind doesn't wander so much, either, unless I let it. Usually, at least. But I can't figure out why reading online is okay, and reading a book isn't.

Perhaps it might be that I expect things online to be short, or at least not novel length, so I'm more open to the idea of reading something that will only take a minute instead of the rest of the night?? One difference that I can think of is that I always always play music when I'm stoned (and not stoned too) but when I try to read stoned, I almost never have music playing. No idea if it has anything to do with it, but I guess it's worth checking out... I don't know, but I'd really like to start reading again.

By the way, I've tried reading all sorts of different types of books. Ones with really beautiful language do hold my attention a little better overall, but I can't get through more than a few words at one time.

Has anyone ever felt like this and gotten around it, or anything??

q.