I live in ALASKA, DAMMIT. I want my GREEN CARD. I want the medical community here to understand that I'm not some "recreational stoner that wants a cheap way out". I can already do that right now as easy as pie with local "dudes". I want, I suppose, the respect of the legal/medical community to my right to use cannabis in a responsible, medicinal way. 4 years ago I underwent gastric bypass because of my obesity. I weighed 265lbs, at only 5'5. I was wearing size 40" jeans, and that is if i put my belly over top. I feel I was blessed with the surgery I had. It reduced the size of my stomach to about the size of a golf ball (instead of a baseball like normal people). I also had my gallbladder removed under my doctors recommendation (due to the fact gall stones can develop with rapid weight gain/loss). I was an avid pot smoker before this operation. I feel this may hinder my chances of obtaining a doctors approval for a medical recommendation. In all honestly, I didn't smoke at all for months after my surgery. I was seriously feeling like SHIT as my fat cells reduced in size and leeched out all the toxins into my body. I could only suck on ice chips for the first week, and after that only have a mouth full of food every few hours. I'm four years out of my surgery now, and times have defiantly changed. I still can't have milk products (probably a good thing anyway)...and I still have very loose stools due to my lack of a gallbladder. When I smoke marijuana at least twice a day, or vaporize (my intelligent preference)...I notice that I can eat about twice as much without total stomach discomfort, as well as being able to give my digestive tract enough "solids" to not give me liquid-shits. I never know these days if i'm gonna fart or piss my pants via my ass. But, if I eat enough, I don't seem to gain any weight, and totally absolve myself of that problem. If I didn't have the appetite-enhancing effects (that actually linger for hours even if you dont get totally high!) I would just "forget to eat" and get really, really thin. It was only after about 6 months post-op that I began to smoke again that I started to stabilize my weight. I got down to 135lbs...because food was just a pain in the ass... Even today, if I'm not some-what (like night before, or whatever) without THC in my system I can't eat. I just don't want to. It's just to much hassle. I'd rather be focused on my job or or whatever else im doing. Story really ends there. I've read the statues, I've viewed the application packet. I just don't know if I should even try and approach my gastric bypass surgeon to sign it. He had to have known i was marijuana positive due to my urine tests (which included all drugs) prior...(i was told by his nurse he doesn't care about weed thought when i seemed nervous..) That still doesn't mean that he is willing to stake his reputation on the line -- being the TOP and NO. 1 "Gastric Bypass Surgeon" in Alaska . Maybe I need to find other medical MJ Alaskan Patients. I have only run across one, he claimed to be one of only 40-50. There seems to be a lack of doctors here who are willing to take the risk of making the medicine available. Can any of those patients in Cali give me any hope/advice? I want this for myself not so much as a "legal way out" but more of a statement to my family and those who despise medical marijuana... I want to also want to help raise awareness as to the medical, instead of psychoactive effects of MJ ...that it DOES help. Damn. Unless I have AIDS or Cancer, it seems no doctor up here is willing to put their reputation on the line. If one does a search of my user profile, you will see posts the night before and thereafter my surgery. Yeah, I've been here that damned long. I'm sick of having to feel like a crackhead to get what I need to feel normal.