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I don't know if many of you are aware or not, but I used to write many songs. Well, perhaps I should say bits and pieces of songs, because I never finish them, just write what comes to my mind at the time. Most are depressing, or sappy, but what can I say, these were mostly meant for my eyes only. I rarely write anymore, but I figured I'd like to share some that I thought had some good parts or lyrics, or something eye-catching about them. Keep in mind, I'm a hopeless romantic . I'm sure some of these I posted around before, but oh well...
And most of them are raps. I have the flow all set in my head. Some are also more of a poem than a song.


This one was more of a poem, but I still looked at them like lyrics in my head. I wrote for an old girlfriend after we broke up. I sent her a letter along with this. Things like the handcuffs, bath bombs, black rose picture, bracelet, were all gifts that we shared while we were going out. I just really liked how this turned out, even though it is sappy, I think it's clever .

She comes home late from work, throws her keys onto the dresser
Takes a look and sees a handcuff key attached to a letter
She reads it and she cries but only enough to pull together
She puts it down and makes a frown and thinks things could be better
Walks into the bathroom, runs the water for a bath,
Tosses in a bath bomb that he got her to relax,
She reaches out for one, grabs the best one of them all
And notices the bracelet around her wrist, and then she bawls
Starts to think of what we had, and begins to wanna call
She dries off and walks out, and sees the black rose on her wall,
She reads the letter one last time and lays it on her bed
Tries to think of what happened and why this all was said
Slowly lays her head down and then starts to fall asleep,
While he’s home doing the same thing, wishing she was his to keep,

At the bottom of the letter he doesn’t even leave his name,
She knows exactly who it’s from, without having to say,
She cries a tear and it drops right on top the written letter
Folds the letter back up, puts it as ‘Return to Sender’
I think that was the day that I lost my girl forever,
And it was wishful thinking that someday I could find better.
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This one is a little crazy (I swear I'm not though ). In my head it's a very fast rap, that's why the lines might seem long. I can flow it to a beat perfect...Don't take offense to this lol, it was purely lyrical.

Abnormal Norman Bates, born with hate, a little bit irregular in the core today
A little bit of blood, on the floor it layed, stained on the doorframe and window pane
And I swore today, that I wouldn’t subdue to my horny ways,
That I’d cut up all the body parts and store away, and find praise when I play with this whore I slay,
I do it just for fun, nothing more to say, I’m sick, twisted, off my rocker a bit
Close fisted I sock her, fuck the bitch, don’t listen, I popped her in the chin
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This was a remix I was doing of the Beatles song, "Why Don't We Do It In The Road". I loved that beat, there weren't many lyrics, and surprisingly was very easy to rap a quick verse too. Sadly I didn't get far with this one. I got stuck, and even ended up deleting a bit because it wasn't good enough. It had potential I think, but it's not like I was going to do anything with anyways.

The 2nd and 4th lines are being sung overlapping the Beatles singing "Why don't we do it in the road". It sounded pretty good, and didn't get that confusing to me at least. You would need to know the song to know what I'm talking about...Begins right after the first time the Why don't we do it in the road lyrics are sung.

Breathin’ heavy on the chevy with some headies,
Got me ready for this betty and she ride me plenty nice and steady
No cars passing, no traffic, no one here to hear our passion
No one here to hear orgasms, no one here to see this smashin’

I was going to try to somehow tie the Beatles lyrics "No one will be watching us, why don't we do it in the road" that they say a couple times in the song in, but I didn't get that far .
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This one I can't really explain easily. It's not a rap, and it's not a poem. In fact I don't even know exactly what this is, because it doesn't flow very well at some parts. Even so, I was pretty happy with this. It's about me always making this one person feel like shit, without ever realizing it until its too late. Even after they forgive me and take me back, I keep on hurting them, and the only time I want to change is when it's too late. Not a true story, but close.

An expedition of my mind, transition redefined,
I digress the point in time when my prison has left you dry
My torment was exclaimed, never tamed when your upon me,
My name is left slain, and only then the pain stopped me,
And I’d continue, I’d continue to let you know
Of your crude behaviors and you need more steps to grow
How little I knew, how brittle your bones grew,
‘Cause my words, only few began to brew a feud,
And while your skin blistered, bones crack and tears fall,
Only then I heard your cries that before didn’t hear at all
I was deaf to your pain, blind to your desolate reflection,
It took your dying eminence to even see the detection,
So now I sit with patience, waiting to see you again,
To try out my apologies, maybe to be your friend
Because my views were unfledged, unkind and untimely
And my ambition is to forget it, but that seems to be unlikely

In the wake of my mistakes, I leave you burning again
Bones break, nerves quake, I have you hurting again,
Concerns are condemned, and there’s not a reason to cry,
Because my actions are infringed, singed trees and my pride,
No more complying to my insolence, the words have become numb,
Phrases from a stranger, and to think I used to be someone
And now I’m unknown in your memory because my choice of words,
You rather forgive than forget, and that poise is absurd
The thoughts still churn, of the hate I gave you in discern
The back of your mind is clouded, trying to save all the concern
Yet you’re still burned, scarred in the mirror only covered in make-up
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This one.....well what can I say, I'm a freak. I have to say though, girls love when you can turn them on simply by putting some lyrics together. Ever since I learned that, I began writing more songs like this . A rap with a good flow.

Girl I know you love the way I tilt my hat to the right
And how I give it to you right, I bring the passion all night
I’ll give it to you rough, or on a slow pace, it’s no race
Whatever makes you happy baby it’s ok, let’s role play
We can meet in the middle of no place, bring nothing’ but ourselves
A bottle of wine and a baggie, not worried ‘bout our health
‘Cause right now my concentrations on makin’ you taste temptation
Had enough of being impatient, can’t take it so no time wasted
Get on the bed, kiss ya body from ya lips to ya hips
Our bodies sweatin’ grindin’ from my dick to ya tits
And from my wrist to ya clit, I’m on top whisperin’ shit
You can scream out what you want and I’ll be listenin’ bitch
Not like the men that you wit’, baby I’ll finish the job
I’ll take charge, cuff ya hands if it helps to get off
You’ll be a star, I’ll run a bath, you can rinse the sweat off
Get in ya car, follow the path, reminiscin’ the set-off
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Another more sappy one. Nothing special, but she thought it was sweet..

There’s no way I want you to become a thing of the past
Don’t want it as a memory of a “fling that we had”
I want you here, helpin’ with my words when I choke up,
And kiss, every inch of you, and see your lips close-up,
We’re closed up, so distant and it’s time for a change,
Time to take a listen to what I’m trying to say,
And if I have to, get down on my knees, for you to see
Just what you mean to me, I’ll do it please,
You see, all I really want is havin’ you to hold,
Cover with a blanket when your feet get cold,
Push your hair behind your ears and, kiss your forehead
Get so comfy in my room, start callin’ it your bed,
Take you by the hand, and never let go,
Take your mind into the clouds, and give your body a show,
Put a smile on your face, and give your skin a nice glow,
I want you baby, please, just let me know, let me know
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This is a remix of "Little Pills" by Kabosh feat. Tech N9ne. My verse was a remix of Tech's, and I left parts of the lines he sung the same, and added my own flavor or twist. Their song was about ecstasy, but I turned my verse into vicodins. I cut some of the beginning, because it was a little too personal.

Let’s find a way to run away from a life full of pain and strife,
What direction I’m going I can’t tell now,
LINE CUT
LINE CUT
Outta cash so I’m looking around for what to sell now,
So I’m finding some vicodin pills, got me subsiding and ill
But I was hiding them still, daily,
So I’m trying and fighting the will, but I’m in denial still
Sorry you might find me killed baby
Pop your vics for the night, put a bit of light in my life,
I feel alright when I’m high, beyond emotional,
Stop the ride on the right, I’m not alright, I might die,
I don’t feel fine I think I’m, going out of control
Feelin’ buzzed, I’m relaxed, I’m going numb now,
Laid on the ground, on my back, and now I’ve come down,
I’m on a stretcher and looking at everyone around,
I made it around late enough just to see the sundown
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Pissed off song I started to write about a break-up. Like I said, hopeless romantic, lol.

Roll the dice, and pick a card, I've played this game before,
You shoot your words, and take a pawn, to get yours ahead more,
The more I hurt, the more you feel you've won this part of war,
You always said you'd play this fair, But now you're adding score,
What's this for? To make sure you’re on top of this bout?
Just to prove to me that you are gone non-stop on your route?
To feel a little worth because you sense that I’m in pain?
I’ve played this game, and you make it plain as day you wanna play.
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And the final one I'm going to share. Another upset one about a break-up. This was one of those girls that will tell you you're perfect, up until the very last minute, and then while you're breaking up, she decides to tell you every single thing she finds wrong with you .

My heart sank, I couldn’t believe the words that you said
All the thoughts about me came out, fucked me up in the head,
And I was hurt, your opinion was so essential to me,
It took a lot for me to think, “Why are you special to me!?
Why am I hurting myself? What did I do to deserve,
The ridicule dished out, and how did you have the nerve?”
For the first time all the negative in you showed all at once,
I took a look at what I had, and grasped it wasn’t enough,
And the heart that only used to pound when holding you to it,
Started beating on without you, realized I could get through it,
You kicked dirt in my direction, it made me open my eyes,
“It’s time to realize Jake, you need something new in your life”

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Well, no need to read all of these, and for those who did, I appreciate it. I realize many of this is not very exciting, or entertaining to most considering the circumstances, and since most are on a more personal level, but I do appreciate it either way if you took the time to read some. I hope I'll start writing again soon, but I only write when I'm inspired to, and lately I just haven't been. At least it's a way to release some built-up tension or anger.

Thanks again.

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