Rhunsulrana

Hey guys,
i'm a 20 year old guy, and have gone from "holy sh*t i don't do drugs i'm strait edge drugs are dumb people who smoke are all miscreants and idiots and i can't abide by them and they're addicts and assholes and yada yada yada" to "holy shit i'm a stoner LOLZ" in a year. fun story actually.

about 15 months ago i met a great guy, and we started kinda dating. about a month and a half into it he tells me "we have to talk" and comes out as a stoner to me. i unspooled. completely, actually. lost it, almost tried to commit suicide. i tried my hardest to relax and just deal with it but pretending everything is ok doesn't actually *make* it ok. i struggled, and we broke up over it multiple times, each time getting back together because of how much we cared for each other.

eventually i decided i needed to just suck it up and try it. i had been doing copious amounts of research, talked it out with the boyfriend TONS, put in lots of erowid time, and came to the conclusion that the best course was to just take a deep breath and inhale. i also know myself well enough to know that going from the above "omg i hate drugz" to toking would be too much of a shock and i would freak, so i started researching things that were "like" pot but not illegal or as strong. and (i've always known i was a cat...) catnip came up constantly. so i tried smoking that with my bf. he shrugged it off, and i realized "hey wait a minute, this doesn't hurt, and i'm not evil cause i've smoked..."

eventually we got our hands on some real bud (our supplier is an hour away, but is related so we trust him the most, it's worth it just to not have to make it sketchy) and i tried my first pot. i liked it, i actually liked it.

I was in no way "cured" of my anxiety about pot. it took a few months of off and on smoking to come to like it.

about a week ago one of my friends called me a "pothead" and instead of my first thoughts being "hells no i'm not! you take that back! T_T" they were "nah i'd say stoner, not pothead". i was shocked. it was an epiphany that i was completely anxiety free about pot, and that i loved it. and that it's helped me realize some good things about myself.

so that's how i came here, i decided i needed to get involved in a little more of the cannabis culture. after all, i <3 me some herb

i'm in north central ct. and i'd love to make some friends here, even if they're just online. i'm always up to chat with people online. i'm a very creative person, and love interesting conversation. so hit me up people and let's make the world smile

peace
~RSR