lukasa

hey guys, im sorry if im starting a new topic, and i dont want to be a dick, but i have this lil situation. Earlier in the year around march and early feb i first tried marijuana it was a pretty good expierience, but afterwards i felt guilty. I tried it 2 more times and on the 3rd time finally got "stoned" but i felt incredibly guilty and like i had betrayed myself and my parents. I also felt like i had detached myself and alienated myself from society. Logically i know that its all the media that is just running amuck in my mind, the anti-weed commercials and all.after my 3rd time i finally snapped under the weighty guilt of my "deep dark secret" i told my dad i had been experimenting, and he was real cool about it. I didnt get in trouble, but he definitely discouraged it. i felt bad and resolved to "never" do it again. I eventually realized that i tryed pot for all the wrong reasons. I tried it cause everyone else was, and i didnt want to be left out. A few months later. After a good 5 months of being cannibus free. I tried smoking pot again. It felt good and i did it with a good friend, but i was worried about expieriencing the same guilt. I am not feeling guilty and it was yesterday that i smoked. But i am kinda feeling like i SHOULD feel guilty, but i dont want to feel guilty, and i am overall confused whether this (pot) is for me. I did it the second time around just to have a good time with a friend. Ughhh im so confused please advise. Dont think of me as a ***** because i actually have thoughts and emotions, im just more sensitive than most.