Mr-Bud-Paranoia

Sup guys im new here and stuff like that.

Ive got a question with a rather lengthy introduction - please bare with me


First time I smoked dro was when I was about 13, with two older cousins, I remember it well, like the first time I busted a nut. The aroma was so delightful, and its taste was something unique and flavorful , it was rolled inside of a black n mild flavored cigar leaf . I'll never forget it! It was a hefty blunt too, half a dime bag. They instructed me on how to smoke - inhale, hold for 5 to 10 seconds and exhale. Anyway, we smoked (puffed n passed) for about an hour or so, maybe longer, until it was a roach, I kept the roach and tweasered it later that day. I expected to feel relaxed, and happy , but it wasnt like that. while they were quiet, calm, red eyed and sleepy looking, or laughing at anything, I felt nothing, I guess I wasnt high. I smoked about 3 times after that and never got high.

The fourth time I smoked I guess I got high, if I did, I sure as hell didnt like it. I freaked out man! My heart started racing and thoughts were flying through my mind at an astonishing rate. I was confused. I thumped my ears and they "clinked" like metal! I panicked so bad I called the paramedics because I thought I was going to freakin die! It was so embarrassing, I was thinking to myself, am I a big puzzy or something? If I cant handle weed, does this make me, a giant sissy? . After that I never smoked again, and for some years, I had been suffering from anxiety attacks bka panic attacks, basically the same situation but without weed. Now I want to try it again, just incase I havent experienced the real high.

Am I incompatible with weed? If I smoke again will I freak out? Is paranoia always experienced when blazing? I've read somewhere that weed can relax you and slow down your heart rate, initially there will be an increase in heart rate and BP but later on in the process you will become calmer, and this is when you feel the better effects of weed. If this is so, why the heck did this happen?