yuri420

I was wondering if my recent pessimism is a withdrawal symptom..
The last time i smoked was around 7 days ago(after smoking pretty much every day for 3/4 weeks). I am feeling really down today, unmotivated to do any work - and i was actually enjoying it. What really shocked me today is the kinds of thoughts that have been floating through my mind, mostly about how meaningless this life is because of the inevitability of death:

OK here it is...i do not want to conform to this society i hate it. you get born, u work ur arse off in school if u wanna be rich, u get rich n become miserable because ur so focussed on work that u forget about ur family so nobody loves u, cuz ur always working - what else have you known?
The second option is to slack off, get a low-paid job and become miserable because your paycheck is so low and you worry so much about money that nobody loves you, cuz ur 2 busy looking after financial matters 2 pay attention to your family.

This is coming from a very optimistic person. I have been told at age 9 that i would never play any kind of sport ever again and i play aussie rules today, and despite constant muscle spasms in my back i play it dam well
I have also been told that i had no chance of suceeding in maths after 49% in yr10 maths, yet went on to the highest maths and recieved 92% in yr11 and 89% in yr12
as you can see im extremely modest to ...soz bout the boasting, just trying to give you an idea of what has made me who i am..there's nothing wrong with a bit of pride, is there?

Back to how i'm feeling now...
I also feel like i have completely lost my connection with g-d(i am a particularly spiritual man, with or without MJ)...wtf is happening to me? Why am i feeling so dam pessimistic? Am i going psycho or something? I didn't think that there where any withdrawal symptoms with weed, i've been going on and off it for almost a year now. ARGH someone help!

I'm going to go watch the simpsons, family guy and fawlty towers. My advice to myself would be to smoke, but i have nothing but resin in my bowl(which im going to smoke now...big deal that'll do) . I will be smoking 2moz arvo, ill let you know how that goes

btw another possible reason:
I was planning on having a sesh with my mate 2nite n he cancelled cuz hes dry rite now...could that be why im so depressed now? Because i was so psyched up 4 getting stoned???

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