gerberbaby98

Hi everyone. I felt the need to post this today. I used to be a regular smoker, from when i was 20 till last summer when I got married to a guy in the military and moved to Germany. So that made me a regular toker for a good 8 years. I thought giving it up would be easy. Now, I'm no doctor, but I do suffer from epilepsy and I feel that MJ helped with my seizure disorder. They were almost completely under control between the meds I am taking and tokin on a J a day. Since I've been away from the herb i noticed an increase in my seizures.

Now heres the most recent news...I got to go back to the states and visit my family and friends a few weeks ago and totally lit up. I missed it dearly. Now I've been back home in Germany for 2 weeks, with no MJ, and thursday night i had a grand mal seizure in my sleep. First one since April 1st. Now to top it off, this morning i had an anxiety attack!! Let me quickly throw in that i worked in the WTC and was there the morning of September 11th. Lucky for me I decided to go outside and smoke a cigarette when the plane hit. Last night i went to see "War of the Worlds" and I think the movie might have brought back some bad thoughts...so i think that may have something to do with my attack this morning. Man how I wish I had a bone on me now!!

Would this have anything to do with it possibly cleaning out of my system or something? I need SERENITY NOW!!!! Thanks ahead of time for any replies.