dancingbackward

hello. i'm not sure if this is the right community for me but i wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this. i'm what you would call one of those anti-weed anti-drug people. well....i Was...
i had read somewhere, i don't remember where, but i read that marijuana has been used for post traumatic disorder and stuff like that. so i was curious in trying it because my life for the past 3 years has been a total mess. i didn't use it to releave depression, i was feeling fine before i smoked it, i made sure that if the day came that i was going to use it, that i was going to be in somewhat of a good mood, because i didn't want to rely on weed to make me feel better. so i got some really good stuff from trusting relatives and i smoked it. at first i was tripping out really bad, i forgot how it felt to get high so it took me a while to calm down. it's been...2-3 years since i last smoked it and i never experienced what i experienced that day. i guess because when i was younger my life wasn't as bad as i thought, i just did marijuana for fun. it a strange experience, somehow i guess being high on marijuana felt like i connected to my subcosciousness. i started to remember things that i've been trying not to accept or face up to, in other words, my fears and anxieties. i started to realize a lot of **** and remember things, but in a way that i could understand it and accept it. i'm sure that if i were to have remembered those things while being sober i would have had a panic attack or flip out and been more destroyed. it seemed like marijuana soothed out the memories for me. it's like i was actually connected with my inner self, other than my usual scared little self that i've been for such a long time. i also have an eating disorder and marijuana has helped me realize and accept many parts of myself and in a way i feel like i no longer have that eating disorder. the only thing i didn't like is that my mind kept wondering off hah or things would sound weird and people looked funny, but that's it, nothing really bad happened. i feel so great now, i feel like..i have taken the best anti depressant or something. usually, anti depressants are created to relieve you of your pain for a bit but they never get to the root of the pain. for me, anti depressants are just ways to force yourself to move on from bad expereinces without facing them. but marijuana helped me face my pain and understand it and accept it. is this weird? have any of you heard of these experiences?
i have to say that i'm impressed. i feel so insightful. although my stomach did hurt after i got sober but i think that's because i ate a small piece of chicken that went bad. hah.

headsi6

hey man had the same experience when i was in my teens.... the level of conciousness is elevated.. u will get used to it , and dont worry its a good thing thats happening to you.