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I've been reading alot about this the past few days because i guess i got really high and started to freak out.
Ill try to keep this short, I had this thought that the only reason why i'm alive is to feel pain and there was no end to it like i would just be stuck in a loop of constant pain for eternity. Like everything i would think about would just hurt. I dont really know how to describe it other than the worst emotional pain i've ever experienced. This has happened to me before like a month back and then i smoked again yesterday and the same thing happened. This time i was alone and before that my friend was with me and he told me i was yelling saying like Oh MY GOD and screaming. This last time i think i was just laying down and i didnt really do anything like that.

i hope you understand what i'm trying to say its hard for me to write down what i felt and happened exactly.