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veryupset420

Please read this entire report. I am convinced this only happens to me, and ONLY me, because I have never seen or heard of someone else like this. I'm embarrassed to even be typing this or revealing myself (which I won't) so that gives you an idea of how bad it is to me. This is not your typical anxiety attack problem post you normally see on here.

This is where my story starts. I don't understand what is wrong with me. Ever since I started smoking 6 years ago, I don't think I have ever gotten genuinly high. No matter how much I smoke, wheather it be a single hit or a full blunt, it seems the only thing that happens to me is a major panic attack. There have been points in my life where I was smoking every day, multiple times a day, for a long time and this always happened. Most of the time I could control it so no one would notice it too bad, but there have been times I have completely freaked out. I've tried every method of smoking, from joints to bongs to vaporizers, and it never made a difference.

This is where my story gets interesting. Why do I keep smoking, you wonder? Well, it's complicated. To some extent, I enjoy the feeling, because I have grown to be used to it, but it's still an unnerving pain in the ass. I am so used to it that I'm convinced it is what getting high is and what other people go through. And no matter how bad it gets, for some reason I cannot stay off of pot. Believe me, I have taken breaks ranging from a month to several months, and I always go back. I have read all of those anxiety help posts on here and no matter what I read nothing will change. What you are about to read is what happens to me every time I get "high."

I'll now describe my symptoms to the best of my ability but it really doesn't do it justice unless you've been through it. Almost immedietely after I smoke, my heart will start to pound intensely. It will change from extremely fast to very fast and back to extremely fast, etc. throughout the time this thing lasts (I feel it like that every time). I'll then get so spaced out I'll be almost stupid and thoughts will be rushing in my head about a million times a minute. I'll dwell on whatever thought is currently in my head until a next one comes. And these thoughts are always BAD, like I will think someone is out to get me, or I am going to die from the bud. At this point I'll usually halucinate something ridiculous but at the time it will feel very logical, like last time I thought my friend's friend (first time metting him) looked like this kid that hates me for something I never did and I thought he was him and he was plotting to kill me. My hands at this point get soaked in sweat and remain that way the rest of the time. It's embarrasing when people notice this part when I go to slap them a high five or shake their hand. Then the strangest thing happens. I don't know how people relax on this stuff, because I ALWAYS feel the need to move while I'm effected by the weed. I'll start tapping my legs compulsively and getting up and sitting back down the entire time, feeling like if I don't do that I will die. My eyes also never get red. I think I'm allergic. When I ask my friends if I look normal most of them say yes, but a few notice I'm bugging out, especially when I have such a bad episode that I run around the hosue and beg my family for forgiveness before I die.

Could it be that I'm allergic to weed? If so, it's not fair, and I know people that seem alot more emotionally sensitive then me (although I am sensitive) and they never bug out and they have a great time. I'M SO FRIGGIN STUCK AND CONFUSED AND I'M SICK OF IT BY NOW. THE THOUGHYT OF ME HAVING TO QUIT WEED FOREVER SUCKS BECUAUSE ALL MY FRIENDS DO IT AND I WANNA FIT IN WITH THEM AND WHAT THEY';RE DOING. IF I DON'T, EVERYTHING IS BORING. PLEASE, TELL ME SOMETHING, ANYTHING TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND. IT NEVER FEELS LIKE A USUAL PANIC ATTACK, IT FEELS LIKE I AM ACTUALLY ALLERGIC TO THE STUFF. I NEED HELP

very unhappy person #420

 

Mamabudz

First take a deep breath and let's get a bit of perspective on this situation.

If your life sucks because you cannot get high -- than there is a much bigger issue here than smoking pot.

Marijuana is a wonderful herbal that can be used for many medical functions and for recreational enjoyment.

It can also, as in your case, do nothing but sustain a slight level of pleasure offset by the intrusion of extreme anxiety caused by any number of other causes -- including but not limited to daily stress, specific stress and too many caffeinated (energy) drinks.

Pot/marijuana/cannabis -- does have the effect of exacerbating other the effect of other chemicals in the body -- and caffeine and other drugs are no exception.

My advice at this point -- just for a week, 10 days...maybe 2 weeks? Cut out the caffeine (maybe a cup of coffee or a Cola a day, and only water milk or juice othewise) and cut the Pot out completely.

While you cannot become physically addicited to the Pot ...unfortunately you probably are addicted to the ubiquitous caffeine and you cannot come off that cold turkey without some emotional and physical Depression as a side effect.

...have a cookie and see how you feel over the next few days of this plan -- and if at any time you feel out of control or feel that you are going to injure yourself, please contact your family doctor or dial 911.

Buzzby

If you've been using cannabis since you were 12, have always had a bad experience, and continue to do it only because of peer pressure, you have much bigger problems than can be dealt with on a marijuana forum. You are in serious need of growing up and becoming your own person.

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cb007sax

You say you never get high, but you describe all the symptoms of being high. First off, the number one concern people always start off with is 'This is happening to no one but me'. I can straight up tell you that I could easily get as paniced as you when I get high, and often due. Usually the worse the weed the worse the panic, but it's all about the mindset. I can tell that you are pre-occupied with your heartspeed because you said it INSTANTLY raises. Well pot isn't quite that strong, and most users don't even notice the slight increase in speed. However, when you concentrate on bad things, your brain will take over and you will feel like whatever you put it. So wh en you say, oh my heart's beating so fast, you'll get more paniced over it and it will actually beat faster. If you can't relax on marijuana and can't shake the fear of panic, you really need to move on because it most likely will not get any better. I promise you I've had all those same nervous thoughts, and the only way I got through it was to chill myself out, and focus on something else. You have to trust the pot to not hurt you, which it won't, you are hurting yourself. You really need to quit immediately if you can't shake these symptoms. Sorry for the truth, but that's just how it is.

SkuNkInMyBluNt

Been there done that...

if all you've ever experienced on weed is panic what good does it for you?
circle weed use around your life, not the other way around and as for now it seems like you got to lay off the pot.
start filling your life with other things, then in maybe 2months or so you could try to get high again, this time be occupied, be out in the sun with your bestfriends, eat food, talk, don't think about panic or "allergic reaction".
I was just as fuckedup as you, I took a pause and actually I remember this one happening during my pause.
Like you all of my friends smoke, but I had no problem laying off for a month, anyway sometimes if I just second handed inhaled smoke for a nano second, I would instantly become high as if I just took LSD.
This is impossible, but my anxiety made it possible.
Theres NO stronger power, NOTHING ever, compared to severe panic and anxiety.
Smoking weed and having panic attacks and continue to smoke and fuck your mind up with all retarded insane thoughts is like eating LSD and smoke PCP for a month all by yourself and start wondering if the Bible is true.. the outcome will be absurd....


Lay off for awhile and get your shit together, thats the only way..

 

~~paranoid~~

are you sure its pot you've been smoking?

i personally think you need to STOP!!!