imissmaryjane

I experienced my first panic attack about 2 months ago. It was wierd because i never thought that kinda of thing could happen , and when it did i wasnt really thinking about much. But this is my story. About a month ago , i was smoking with my friends out of my new bong ... We got reaaaally high and were chilling outside and talkin crap , i was thinking about this pain in my elbow and how it felt really wierd when i would move it , i started to get dizzy and felt like i was gonna black out , so i sat down and instantly felt better and i blamed it entirely on my elbow thinking maybe i had some nerve damage :\. About a week later , we cop some fire chronic , roll a blunt , chill for a while and smoke 2 more, about 20 minutes later , out of the blue i felt this wierd kinda like internal pulsation that would start at my head and go down. I didnt freak out about it , i just thought it was kind of odd, so i decided to leave and go get something to eat/drink , as im driving my friend home he said he noticed me twitch a few times , i didnt think much of it though. I get to my friends house and grab a cup of water and notice my legs are shaking a bit , so i grab a slice of bread and cram that bitch down . Then i noticed that my heart was freaking RACING , so i told his mom i think something is wrong with me , i checked my fever everything checked out and i started getting the shakes real bad (kinda like when your nervous) after about 25minutes of this going on , i was to scared to let it pass by itself , i called the paramedics and they came and i was instantly better just by their being there. They told me it was a panic attack due to smoking. So i stopped for about a week , and tried it a few times and whenever I smoke now it just puts me in a shitty mood and all i can do is think about it , no matter how hard I try to keep my mind on other shit . Even with like 3-4 hits off a blunt i start to get like "side-effects" i think about my breathing and try to control it , i get the shakes (minor) and my heart speeds up a little , nothing like that one night though. So its been a month since ive smoked now. But all my friends smoke and I miss it so much , i love the aspect of rolling it , looking at it , smelling it , feeling it , SMOKING it. This really sucks , any advice anyone out there can give me?