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And it does suck. You described what happens to me, happened tonight infact. Just not knowing what to say, and
feeling self-conscious. I think its a state of mind, like I used to be totally"normal", when Id get high, but then the
anxiety, and fear of others came in. I am taking Paxil, its helped a lot, but its only been a month or so. Thats where im at too.

lxl Ash lxl

after reading all these posts, and reading a bit on the website that LilDiniG posted, social anxiety sounds like a possibility for me... i hate public places, especially with a lot of people, and i really hate being the center of a crowd. and feeling like i'm judged and everything.. but i don't think the marijuana helps or hurts it any.. i do feel most comfortable when i'm smoking alone.. but i like to smoke with a friend or two.
large groups bother me though, for one, i never get into the conversation, *not knowing what to say*, and feeling like people are just judging me left and right. i also notice that sometimes i feel small panic attacks.. my heart beats faster, and i get all shaky.. it lasts but a few minutes, and it's usually when i'm high. I need a change.
i've been smoking the same bud for a long while... and that's probably part of the problem. the bud we get is probably from mexico.. its dark green and really compressed, and really seedy. i'd grow some, but i'd have to wait a while before it's smokeable. i need to find someone who has some quality bud.. unfortunately it's hard to find in my area of missouri.. unless you know the right people.. and i don't anymore. d*mn*t. i want some nice, fluffy, light green orange hair UNCOMPRESSED bud.. heh. but thats alot to ask for in springfield missouri i guess. oh yeah, and not alot of seeds. enough to save and plant, but not too much that i have to deseed every single nug in the bag..

maybe i'm just asking for too much.

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raegp1

After reading all of these posts I realize I am not alone that's for sure.

Slightly Stoopid,
I experience the exact same things you do and I am also about to turn 18. I have problems with anxiety, depression, terettes syndrome (ADD) , and panic attacks. I am taking Paxil for these problems and without paxil I am a complete mess, I don't talk to my friends, have major anxiety depression etc.
I have smoked marijuana and hash oil heavily in the past few years. Over the past few months I have been smoking marijuana and hash oil heavily like twice a day sometimes more.
A week ago I had to stop smokeing this often because I noticed i was too burnt out and everytime I smoked i got terrible anxiety .
I also did acid a few times and had very interesting trips but at times on the acid I had major anxiety and panic attacks. Once i had to hang up the phone on a friend because I had a panic attack and didn't know what to say . Acid triggers mental illnesses anyway so anyone out there with my problems shouldnt do it either. I just did it because I thought it would turn my life around or something but it didn't do much in that area instead I think it made my problems worse but Paxil can cure them so it's nothing to be mad at.

I've felt a lot better after cutting back on the dope.
I now get high 3 or so times a week and the anxiety levels are down and panic attaks are not to bad. I had one today though

Try cutting back on the dope slightly stoopid , maybe to twice a week or so and see what happens or you could try increasing your anti-depressant dossage I dunno just tryin to help man. I'm hopein the best for ya
Try to pray once every so often and ask for help . This personally has helped me.
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Dope creates hope .
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Psycho Donkey

I have only experienced this once and I never want to feel it again. My friend's were cracking jokes and talking to me and I couldn't say anything and just wanted to go to bed and felt really weird. I never want to feel it again. I feel sorry for you people that have to have it quite frequently and I would advise to see a doctor to help with this. I am truely sorry.

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MAKAVELI THADON

U guys become less talkative and all that when u r really stoned. When im stoned I get real talkative and dont care about what people thinkl. I talk 2 every1 and im cool with every1 and dont feel self consious or any of that. Maybe its just me. STOOOPID i hope everything works out for you do u can get your life and smoke back together.

Stoned Raider

At least for most people it isn't©
One of my friends is more or less normal while straight ¥altho a trifle thick¤, he can talk to everyone with confidence, strangers included© As soon as he takes a puff, he turns into a retched, weak, pathetic creature, unable to defend himself and hardly able to string a sentence together©
Personally, parties suck when i am smashed, i am not as talkative or active and i get tired once i start to come down late at night© I much prefer to smoke at the end of a party to wind down, or to spend a night with a few mates smoking© I also lose a lot of my self confidence, and think about the consequences of my actions too much© I get nervous a lot easier, whereas usually i am very calm and rational© If i have to talk to a chic or a cop or something when ripped i choke and stumble on my words and say stupid things© I do not think i an socially anxious tho, just stoned because when i am straight i will chat to women, and be smart to cops ¥"Evening C*NTstable! What seems to be your problem?"¤ with no worries©
Some people think weed enhances every occasion, it may for a select few, but i think it enhances some and not others© So for me, smoking it all the time is stupid©

mexican dirt weed

welp umm i think a major factor could be the weed ure smoking i try to make a effort to get sativa only casue i hate indica although indica sativa mix aint bad. indica makes u tired sleepy and not feel good sativa is the all laughy wanna do somthin feel good high. another reason is maybe u are depressed casue that happened to me i have depression and everytime i got high i felt realy sad and tired but since i went to see a counciler who put me on anti depressints i feel alot better and i love to smoke weed again well i never realy stopped hehe. another factor could be inviroment are you with people u like to get high with a have couple of friends that i hate to get high with its just a weird vibe i get. any ways i hope some of those tips help man hope ure toking expirence gets better later

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auntmary

man you and i are much the same!

whenever i smoke up these days i get very self conscious and dont know wot to say. it depends on my mindset when going into it and who i am around, but i find if i smoke up alone and then go into public places i just cannot handle it very well at all.

a few months ago i was reading about social anxiety disorder (social phobia or anxiety) and i realised that many of the symptoms i read of on the sites were similiar to what i experience. at times i can be very self conscious, and class speeches or anything can seem impossible and i usually drink alcohol before i have to do them to calm the nerves (true :P)

since ive realsed this i have tried to not think about it as much and it is working to an extent, but i am interested in getting some medication, as i know i am still hopeless in certain social situations.

when i used to smoke weed it used to lower my inhibitions and make me hyper, nowadays i get more collective and less social.

i would like to get some medication for my social anxiety, i am considering self medicating some st john's wort, as i have read it is good for anxiety. ive talked it over with my parents before and they didnt like the idea of medications, and they just told me to not think about it blah blah blah (no help).

do something about it man, you will be happier you did.

mexican dirt weed

welp dude i would worry bout it cause any mental disorder is bad dude sit down have a long talk with them even if they dont want you to talk about ir and tell them that maybe you should go see a counciler but who knows man maybe you will grow out of it but i would have a serious talk with youre parents abou t youre problems and ways you can adress them thats realy all i can think of dude ......

mexican dirt weed

well since youre thinking bout self medicating i realy dont think that st. johns wort **** works if you live in the city try to find a new age shop like that is into earth magic wicca green magic cause i bet they got some good blends or mix's or potions for exactly the situation youre in and they actually know what theyre talkin bout most of the time i know from personal expirence i bought some stuff that clears out youre system but we wont get into that but hope that helps later dude