StonedOnSativa

wow its really interesting to hear so many people with simillar experiences. I was a daily smoker for about 2 years, smokers for 3 and change and a couple months ago i got quite high and i had an intense flashback of some other plant (which was a terrible experience in the firstplace) . I like the first poster became very claustrophobic and didn't really listen to what people were saying and experienced some very wierd feelings and thought process. my freinds definitly knew something was up and said i never ever bug out like this (which i dont). this lasted about 20 minutes, however for the next 3 weeks i still had symptoms of that "panick" attack. severe depression, hot/cold sweats, omnimous feelings and perceptions of stuff, i basically did not feel right and my dreams were incredibly vivid and "****ed up". I basically related it all back to that night and more importantly the night 6 months ago where i played with a differant "plant". Those 3 weeks were hell and i cant really describle much more but basically i fealt like I had gone skitzo and i got myself to believe it and i didn't think it would really end. I did not smoke weed as well after the experience and this had been the first toime taking a break llonger than a few days in 2 years. suddenly i gradually fealt normal again in the span of a few days, and then for 2 weeks i fealt completely anxiety/panick and wierded out free, however not really back to normal you cant be after an experience like that, the memory really does linger. But basically since the end of those 3 weeks i have fealt generally ok. This past weekend i wanted to conquer the fear so i decided to smoke a joint wiht a couple freinds. I took maybe 4 hits and it kicked in 5 minutes after. The wierd anxiety and head games and change of conciousness kicked in and for the whole 2 hours i kept shifting from thinking it was scary and reminicant of the previous time to saying to myself it is all right it is just a drug, it kept going back and forth and i couldn't wait for it to end, i played it pretty well and my freinds had no idea. Unlike the last time it has been 4 days and i have had no after effects like the first time. This last time was unlike the first time becausae the anxiety and wierd thought process i experienced were due to my fear of a reoccurance which never really did happen. I had an incredible bond with weed but i realize now it is not something i can really ever enjoy anymore which is a damn shame. I have concluded that that plant was a ****ing terrible descison for me personally not to mention i have a background of schizophrenia in my family). Smoking marijuana is just in my opinion something to bring out the minor borderline symptoms i most likely posess, although like i said i have not really experienced anything in the last 3 weeks (minus those few tokes).
Also i was reading an interesting article about weed and scizophrenia and alot of people with experience with this type of stuff claimed that they had smoked heavily during the 80's with no problems and it was genereally outdoor. When the early 90's rolled around lots of skunk and high potency hydro bud was introduced and they started to expereience panick attacks and skitzo type symptoms. they stoped smoking hydro and when they smoke outdoor it causes no problems. This makes alot of sense to me because now that i think about it i was a very heavy smoker and only smoked quality hydro a couple times a day. It defoinitley was a very mind oriented high and logically that point seems acurrate to me, also lots of chemicals and **** are added in the fertilizer, wya its grown etc and sheer potency of thc levels.

I think my smoking every day for so long plus predisposition to this disease as well as the plant all are reasons to what i experienced and most likely will any time i blasze from now on, and it is a ****ing shame and during the worst times my depressions which ive had for a couple years really intensified and many emotions were going through my head. I really wish there was a way to kind of pull through this and enjoy weed again but for now not smoking works wonders and i am incredibly thankful those 3 weeks didn't last longer than they did or it would have taken a sewrious toll on me.

Anyone with experiecne or any opinion please respond and i know there are otheres on this thread who want to hear something from somebody else because it really does help