Passage

And I'm not afraid to admit it, haha. My life has suddenly gone way uphill, and I've been constantly busy (good busy) and unable to smoke, which led me into being sober for 15 days straight, an extreme rarity for me. I was practically spending all my time with my girl never having enough time to get or smoke any of the herb, up until last night. I copped a bag from my boy and loaded up the bowl once my girl left. I smoked the same amount I smoked every weekend before my unexpected break. Boy was I in for a SURPRISE. I thought I could handle everything weed could throw at me after smoking for 4.5 years. Well I was wrong. I had never even experienced anything this emotional even on a certain off-topic fungi. Once I got in my basement I realized that I was REALLY fucking baked. Like ridiculously high. I tried to enjoy it, but the entire high went into this negative mind set. I started thinking about how she doesn't really like me, and it's all going to end horribly. Now this has been the first girl who I may actually love, and am not getting with just to be with someone which is really special to me. This thinking actually got me so upset that I began full out crying for at least 15 mins. Anyway, the point of this story is never underestimate the power of the herb, and after taking long breaks don't go crazy, I think I must have smoked an entire gram. This probably makes me seem like a total pussy, but whatever haha.

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SpiralArchitect

You should take this as a positive experience, crying can be a very powerful and helpful emotional tool. You need to ask yourself if this relationship is worth it, and if smoking marijuana is worth it right now in your life. Only you can figure that out for yourself. You need to find a balance, to center yourself so if you decide to smoke again it won't induce a negative experience. Marijuana is a very powerful tool, as well as medicine, but it can be misused...

As far as your relationship goes, I say enjoy it while you can, they seldom last as long as one's heart desires.

No way. You and I, we -- everyone, laughs and cries. It's part of being human, experiencing the full spectrum of human emotion; fear to friendship, jealous to compassion, hate to love. I'd say anyone who isn't doing such is missing out on 'life'.

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Trocisp

Hey, speak for yourself, I'm a giant black hole of emotional nothingness....

All kidding aside, crying can be seriously beneficial. If you are under stress, your body needs to deal with it, it does bring physical (as well as mental) ramifications if there isn't some form of outlet.

In fact, some biologists (specifically William B. Frey II) hypothesize that tears rid the body of stress inducing chemicals.

Ever notice that after you cry, you feel much, much better? Even though all that has changed is your face is all puffy and red?

Jake

I think that your experience was probably more positive than negative. I'm one of those guys that built a lot of walls when I was younger, and now I'm at the point where I haven't cried in over 5 years. There are so many times I would love to let it out and just cry but something is in the way.

Thanks for sharing, man. You're like the opposite of a pussy for doing so....one love.

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TonyGeiser

I get unbelievably upset after fun occasions that can only happen once (graduations, weddings, vacations, etc). I just graduated and my party was last night. I got totally wasted (no chronic, just beer) with a bunch of awesome people. I am typically a really shy guy and I don't talk much, so partying made it a lot easier. At any rate, I had a blast and now I'm getting sad that it cannot happen over again.

Crying is natural and is beautiful because of that. You are a lucky man to have love in your life.

When the sea takes me like my mother's arms
I will breathe free as any word of God

That was purity.

Snipe¤Star

dont ever let a ***** hold you down

and remember, no matter what the current temporary girl in your life is doing, mary jane will always be faithful...

chadwick

had bad experiences like that when i came off of sobriety before, seen my friend go through almost the same dilemma, hope you dont have to do that again and hope you and your girl do work out in the long run

and your not a pussy, it takes a man to admit that he cries

feedyourhead

i just think it's very... interesting, that you say you get emotional on OT's like fungus... i think that if you get emotional when you trip, it's not going to be a surprise if you get emotional when you're really high..... at all.

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Passage

I found it strange as well, but when I was on the OT it was a profound enlightening experience, while this was just a deep depression for about 2 hours. I've smoked three times since then with other people have been fine. Thanks for all your responses, this community is awesome.

pkster8235

Aww.. crying isn't all bad. It's really cathartic and we all need a good cry now and then. And don't we always feel better afterwards?
Sorry to hear that it wasn't a better experience for you.

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