chronic12345

last year in 9th grade i was diagnosed with depression
the feeling is terrible, you feel like you will never become anything in life and that your life currently sucks, and you have no motivation to do anything, which along with my ADD resulted in me not doing work at all some days. i made failing grades even though my iq was 121.

after i started smoking weed a couple months ago, everything got better, like seriously. i started feeling happier about my life even though it still wasnt going well, and it still isnt now, and i just felt a lot better overall. plus i was able to get my work done too and make better grades.
(i guess you could say thats ironic from the reefer madness perspective, but thats why im posting it here)

its been 6 days since ive smoked weed, and i am starting to feel like i used to again

the 6 day gap was the result of a bad weed connection, a couple weeks ago i gave him the money in advance (im so retarded ), then he spent it, but smoked that weed and ive been asking him every day for my dime since then and he never has it, or just says he never has it. im not buying from him again.. (even though ive known him since 7th grade, hes turned into a huge dick over the past year, always calling ppl names n shit)

a couple of days ago i was talking to this girl i know that smokes, and shes really cool unlike my first dealer, and shes not rly a dealer but she agreed to buy some for me if i give her the money. i gave her some today and she said she will have it by tomorrow. shes not an asshole like the first dealer so im pretty sure that she will give me mine.

i just cant wait till tomorrow, cuz i hate feeling depressed, yall have no idea how fucked up it is.

im sry for the long story, i just really wanted to let this all out.

jikaboom123

I'm glad you enjoy MJ and all, but you really shouldn't use it to mask your problems. You're simply throwing a sheet over the Rhino in the room.

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chronic12345

im not really using it to mask my problems, once i start smoking it, i can start to function and feel the same motivation a regular person does, from there, i can fix my problems myself.
i do wish it wasnt this way tho, i mean i like smoking weed but i dont really like the fact that its also my medication.

chronic12345

i know it seems like i am using it to temporarily "escape" my fucked up life, but its not really the high that helps me.
it works to neutralize my terrible mood, even when im not high.

its either cannabis or the amphetamines prescribed by my psychiatrist.

either way i need medication, and i would rather use the safer alternative.

lMarijuana lMan

Hey chronic,

I would suggest you identify the problems in your life that brings about your depressive feelings...
You may find by changing some aspects of your lifestyle the rest will fall into place.

For instance, start talking to girls you think are cute and gain some self-confidence... join some groups in your town/city that involve activities you enjoy (besides pot)... such as video games, sports, computers, art, etc.

You may have just fallen into the "slump" where everyday is predictable and nothing seems to change. You have to make this change yourself and then you'll develop into a new person which has a strong foundation of self-confidence.

Your current foundation seems to be rather weak (from what you've told us)... but once you develop yourself and "find yourself" a bit more... you may find your depression decrease and you can use marijuana as recreation, and not as an "escape route".

Good luck

SweetBudz

hey i know where ur coming from...if u have a legit reason to be depressed and u feel you are in distress..then u arent clinically depressed! if u have a lot of stuff going for u and u can do what u want and succed and ur still depressed then ur clincally depressed..hope this helps..im no shrink but i did 2 years of psyhe major lol before i quit..and ive had extended depression for about a yeartherapists said i should try anti depressant cuz she thought i was depressed..was lame and it made me more uncomfortable and depressed (other people ahve reported similiar interactions) i knew i wasnt depressed..i told the therapist i had circumstancial depression. then i got over it tripping on shrooms at the beach one night..go figure! but without weed i cant get by so easy

jonolikesbuster

I have to agree with most of the other replys, I wouldn't use pot to escape from your problems. But I'm not you, and ultimately you should do whatever makes you the happiest. Just try to look at things as objectively as you can, and make choices that are well informed.

Adolescence is tough, it's an emotional roller coaster. Just roll with the punches.
This is one of my favorite quotes by Emerson "Bad times have a scientific value. These are occasions a good learner would not miss."

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Audio

That is exactly what happened to me. Though I'm not sure what my iq was, but I was definitely a smart kid with lots of unused potential. I never really started getting over it until after I had graduated highschool, which I deeply regret, I wish I could go back in time and do it over with the mind set I have now.

You said that when you smoke you get the motivation of a regular person and you can fix your problems yourself. What are you doing to fix your problems? If you are still depressed when you have not smoked for a while then you obviously are not fixing anything and as jikaboom said you are just masking your problems with weed.

Sorry but until you can realize that weed is not the right way to fix your problems you are doomed to a life of depression, like it or not, believe it or not.

I really didn't start seeing improvement in my own life until I stopped being dependent on weed and I took action to better my life. I started actively pursuing my interests and hobbies(mostly in audio engineering). I actually read(something I never did in highschool) to learn more about how sound, recording equipment, instruments, etc. work. I currently have a 4.0 GPA in college compared to somewhere around 2.0 GPA in highschool.