Free_Your_Mindd

Alright tonight is such a bad night for me. I am sorry if I go on and on about this. I am just soo upset I havent even cried this much since my last boyfriend broke up with me.

Well tonight I come home around 830, since I had this thing for chorus. I come home and my parents are just sitting on the couch watching a movie. They pause the movie and go and talk to me. They know I smoke. But this is what happened. My parents ask me "where is all your weed going?" and I answer honestly "What are you talking about I have only smoked with a few people this week and like twice before school this week" and they go how its all gone and stuff and what happened to some bud and stuff that was in there and I said how I grinded most of it. Well here for the past few days my dad has been taking and adding bud to my bag. So they have been playing fucking mind games with me. Which already pisses me off since well I do have anger issues I guess. My doctor wants me to be tested for bipolar but I refuse because I will refuse to take any medication. After that much I go back in my room and I am pissed and yelling at this point and I got so mad picked up my piano keyboard and I threw it acrossed the room. Wow, that made me sound like a complete psycho. =/ But that's what I did because I was so mad.

Then like 30 minutes after that my mom was like "Don't bother driving to school tomorrow, your riding the bus" So I get up out of my room and start bitching about how they take my bud and shit like that..and then they go they 'put it all back' and then I look and it's not all there..I had about 3 more buds and a really other nice sized one too..and they are gone. Only like 2 small ones and shake. So then my mom goes and tries to say my friend Alex stole a lot of the weed or something today when she was in my room. Yeah, Kind of hard when I was in my room the whole time with HER and I stood right by where I had it at. So I don't know why they are trying to do this shit to me. I Fucking hate it. I am sick of crying over these stupid little mind games.
ugh, I am sorry for ranting.
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I hate they are doing these mind games to me, epically because I have this big this coming up Saturday this big get together and this guy I really like is coming and they are just messing with me so much they are going to make me not have this get together and I will be completely devastated because i have been waiting for this for soooooo long. :/