VaporizorMariJ

Well Iv been an emotional mess lately because my heart just isn't on the same level as my mind. I will try not to get into to much detail but here is my situation... I just want to know if anyone has any advice from being in similar situations.

Iv been going out with my girlfriend for about 8 months now, I love so much and she is already set that she wants to marry me, where Im still not sure, im just unsure of how IN love I am. Here's my problem. Theres this other girl who I dated for a bit when I was 16, our paths seperated ways when I left for college and to do other things with my life but we always kept in touch. Lately she has come back into my life again over the last little while and we have grown even closer then ever as friends. I figured everything would be fine and my feelings for her were gone, but I talk to this girl even more then I talk to my own girlfriend. She is currently dating one of my friends(its been about a month since they have been dating) which just makes things even more fucked up. As of the last few weeks shit pretty much hit the fan for me emotionally. Me and the girl had a long talk about how we were getting to close and can't get rid of our feelings for each other. This girl is like my complete match she has everything in common with me... Nerdy girl (altho extremely hot) who is a musician just like me haha.

My biggest worry is that we are so attracted to each other I know for a fact im going to make a huge mistake and she knows this too. It will only take us being alone for too long together. Im having such a guilt trip because we were drunk the other night and we kissed, but we stopped and I actually felt like I was going to cry because I wanted it so bad but it made me feel so guilty since Im in a relationship with a girl who is head over heels in love with me. So that night she pretty much cried to me because she has such strong feelings for me but doesnt want anyone to get hurt, while I tried to be strong and kept my cool telling myself everything is going to be ok... where nothing is ok. I made the decision that I was going to just stop talking to her so much... but I feel even worse when im not talking to her! so I really dont know what to do... I honestly think I love two girls and Im stuck in this depressing state until I figure it out.

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