Conky

Hey everyone,

I'm really struggling as of late, this is a long story, and I'm looking for all the advice I can get.

On October 18th my girlfriend of almost 6 years decided to breakup with me. I know things weren't perfect as of late but never in my wildest dreams did I actually think she would call it quits. We were still talking everyday, things were just a little stressful as I just bought a house, she's in her last year of University, and work had been hectic.
The last 3 days however, had been perfect, getting along doing great, no issues period. So on October 17th we had a birthday party at my house for my 24th birthday, which was actually on the 20th, and again at the party everything was perfect. All my friends are there everyone is getting along not one issue the whole night.
Wake up in the morning have breakfast, then she picks up all her stuff and says she's leaving me. She says her heart hasn't really been there for a couple months, but I'm planning my whole life around this girl.

Every thought in my life, for the future was always "we" "us" etc...

I have so many thoughts going through my head about her constantly I can't stop it. I constantly need friends and family around, or I literally just break down. It was my first relationship and hers as well, and there was such a long time when we swore we would always be together forever, but we weren't rushing things because she was only 21, and still in school.

I had all my eggs in one basket her really. I gave up most of my old friends for her, most of my hobbies, my life really looking back at it. She was without a shadow of a doubt my bestfriend in the whole world. She was my support system, everything.

So her I am basically feeling as if I have lost it all. I know in reality I haven't, I have a GREAT family, GREAT friends, but in the end it doesn't help cure the pain I'm in, it is only a temporary fix.
I tried everything to get back with her, and she doesn't want any of it. I have no been completely cutoff, and told NOT to contact her. Ok....may not seem to hard, but I had talked to her every single day (and I mean that) for the last 6 years........how the HELL do I just stop?

Looking back at it maybe it wasn't a perfect relationship, but I was always willing to try my best to fix things to change.
I just can't understand this whole situation. I am very successful, I'm only 24 I just bought a 2100 sq ft house 7 years old, 2 cars, treated her like gold, paid for everything for her.

I could keep going for days about this. I just feel such a hole in my life right now. My best times are usually 8pm + when I pull out my SSV, but that just masks the problem.........but it does a good job lol.

Advice......go ahead please

Thanks for listening