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JMedric

well, i thought it might fit the subject. So, are you happy today? I'm so sick of having to take a ****ing "happy" pill everyday, just so i can feel normal. For me(and bajillions of others), if i dont take pills morning and night, i cannot be happy. its just impossible. All because of some stupid chemical inbalance in my head. For the majority of people, they can all wake up and be happy and normal. For others, its another story. For past week i havent taken my pills. I dumped them all down my toilet and flushed them. Im sick of having to wake up and take a pill just so i can be "normal." Some of you might think im selfish and stupid, but i dont care. I came into existence for some reason. Now, instead of being normal and happy in this "great world," i have to take a stupid ****ing pill every morning so im not depressed, cold, and bitter. Well, there is also Anxiety pills and Sleep pills for me to take. I dont know what the meaning of this post was supposed to be, just wanted to let you know how i feel.



ps***just one of my thoughts:~~~ So i get put on this earth. Im smart good looking and have a lot of nice things going for me. Then, one day i wake up, have a chemical inbalance and am depressed. I dont know what happened. Ive felt like this for 3, almost 4years now and i dont know whats wrong with me. Paaaching!! Ive found a "cure" for it all! So now im on this cure, but i notice its now a lot harder for me to get off(...nothing to worry aBout, "just another side affect from your pill that keeps you normal). **** it, if i have to take a pill everyday to feel normal, and not be able to "get off", then might as well shoot me. *****Ive got a lot more pent up inside of me, but this was written to make a long storie short*****

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Faaip_de_Oiad

Wow i know exactly what you mean!!!

My stories a little different tough. I dont know if i have a chemical imbalance or what, but for the past few years ive been depressed, some days more than others. Ive never seen a doctor because i dont want to be a slave to the pill. So i take it day by day and things are actually starting to work themselves out. there was a time when i was horribly depressed, but i tried not to kill myself and i would try to deal. I would (and still do) feel alkward around people other than my friend. But for the first time i talked to two girls this week, and im feeling better. Just try to concentrate on things you love when you can, for me that was art and music. So just try and get through it even though its very hard. What REALLY helped for me was the phrase Carpe Diem (sieze the day), take some risks, do things you normally wouldnt, dont care what people think of you. Life is short, make the best of it. I REALLY hope this helped cause i know what its like.

CARPE DIEM!!!

~Faaip_de_Oiad~

Leithreas

My good friend Medric!
i didnt know it was going on for 3 - 4 years now...I'm sorry to hear that. Flushing your pills isnt going to do anything for you. (I'm not saying that taking the pills will do anything good for you either) But hey, if I were still allowed to hang out with you I'd go over to your house, say hi to your family, take you over to Joeys, and get you really ****ing high. But I'm sorry, stupid parents wont let me hang out with ston---sorry, pot-smoking people. (I know you dont like to be claled a stoner) Well, peace out and have fun at school....try to get all your grades up..finals are in a couple of weeks!

ps..i think you are wearing off on me...that depression **** sucks...I think its my parents fault for taking away all my friends...maybe I should come out of the closet and tell them I smoke, but who knows...they'll probably kick me out...can I stay with you?

anyways...I hope that "chemical imbalance" starts to balance out and you feel happy.

see ya tomarrow buddy!

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Have a nice day!

O.B.421

You know, you're not alone. And I know that doesn't solve things, but I was in a deep depression for a good 4 years and I always thought, "Am I the only one who feels this ****ty? Everybody else seems to just be so damn happy...not a care in the world." The thing is, a lot of people walk the earth "pretending" their happy to mask the turmoil in their lives. Why did I go into such a deep depression? Because I was trying to "find myself" - go against the grain of what people/family always expected of me, which was a lot...too much. In the four years I was in college, my entire being took a nose dive - down the drain. I saw a therapist, self-medicated, etc. But I finally graduated and got out of my rut by leaving and starting all over. I know our situations are different, but they are also similar. You need to make changes in your life. Find things that make you happy - for me, it's surfing, drawing, snowboarding, hanging out with good people. Don't try and do things to please others b/c it won't work. And hey, there's no such thing as "normal" and you don't have to always be "happy" to enjoy life or to live life. Trust me, I got really sick of hearing the whole "Are you happy today?" crapola...I want somebody to define "happiness". It's all relative and not the most important thing in life.
-Stef

deadhed

JMedric: I have a mutual friend that felt the same way. He just stopped getting his prescription filled. He says that if he has to be bummed 80% of the time to feel joy every once and a while, he'd take that over being content 100% of the time.

 

grassmike

I will say that I am not a doctor but I have experienced alcohol induced depression. Yes alcohol can actually cause depression by removing seratonin from your brain. I think it was Dr. Weil who suggested exercise for depression. My doctor first said to quit drinking which I already had. She said to exercise also and I joined the Y. Even 30 minutes of walking for 6 weeks can make a difference in how you feel. Just remember the evolutionary course of things and you will realize that people have never been so sedintary as today.

I realize how hard it is to get motivated to walk when you are depressed but it sure is worth a try. And if you drink alcohol you should definetly quit. I will include Dr. Weil's web page. This may be considered a commercial link so I will remove the http. ://www.drweil.com/app/cda/drw_cda.php

goodgirl

As a teenager I was drugged up by shrinks to the point that it took all my willpower to force myself to even take an aspirin for a headache when I was older. I objected to the "false happiness" and the side effects of the pills of my youth.

The problem is that I was so bitter about it and so scared of those feelings that I was hurting myself. I finally sat down with a few people and was informed about how much antidepressants and other such medications have changed in the past 14 years. There are less side effects, less harsh, and many of them actually help with the problem. Rather than just throwing out your pills I would suggest speaking to your shrink about the side effects and possibly trying another medication instead.

My aunt was one of the ones that brought my fears out into the open and brought them into perspective for me. I expressed bitterness over having to take a pill every day just to be "normal" and she pointed out that diabetics probably feel the same way. If I was diabetic I wouldn't feel the sense of shame of being "different" because I was doing what I had to do to live. A chemical imbalance is just that....something that has to be dealt with.

I object to how quickly psychiatrists prescribe medications without looking at other alternatives but if you yourself are aware that this is not a passing phase etc...then it is up to you to do what you feel has to be done to deal with it. Yes, it sucks and yes it would be nice to believe that it is all in our heads and something we will get over but there comes a time when you have to suck it up and deal with it

I apoligize if I am coming off as preachy because believe me I am the last one to pretend to have all of the answers. I have thrown out my pills more than once and currently it has been more than a month since I have "remembered" to take my medication so I am not trying to lord it over anyone. I think I mostly felt the need to write this to remind myself why I have to get back on my meds so I want to thank you for making me deal with it.

Good luck

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JMedric

well thx alot goodgirl. you pointed out a lot of true things to me. The way i should deal with it in my opinion is, take my meds, and figure out what bothers me and causes me to feel low and everything. Then slowly decrease my dosage and actually deal with my problems by myself, not with the help of some meds. Until im completely off the meds. But i dont want to do that so **** me.

Rusty_Cage

i believe that one's goal in life is to find something that makes them happy. if you're depressed, then maybe you're looking in the wrong places. then again, i have no doctorate and i dont know alot about the brain. one will experience happy times, sad times, and "normal" times. try to find something that makes you happy and dont dwell on the things that do not.

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