poeticbliss

I made a post about a week or two ago about me quitting because of my parents finding my stash. I'm still going to stay clean until I move out but something has come up that really is disturbing me.

There were several things that my dad said to me that made me mad, but I was just happy he wasn't kicking me out, so I didn't argue.

1) My dad drinks about a 6 pack of beer every night, he's an alcoholic. (Who is he to tell me what to do when he has bad habits of his own).

2) My dad claims he doesn't like marijuana because he holds the law very highly. Once again false. My dad drinks and drives all the time. He always has a beer with him, and at least in Texas we have open container laws. Basically it's a legal to have an open container of alcohol, even if your not driving. I remember when I was little I saw him pouring his beer into a mug before going on a road trip. I asked him "isn't it illegal to drink and drive?" my dad just replied "not if I pour into a cup". Also my brother used to let my brother and his friends come over and get drunk. It's not illegal in Texas for him to let my brother drink but it is for him to let those other underage ones too. He doesn't hold the law highly at all, it was just a blank statement.

3) This is the new information that is driving me crazy. My parents made me feel horrible about lying to them. I had to sit through a 45 min lecture about honesty. Well my mom likes to hide my drum sticks from me cause I tend to bang on everything and she doesn't like dents on the kitchen table. So I was looking for them in their room, and in my moms drawer was a pack of Kool Filter Kings. That's when it all dawned on me. We have an ash tray in the back yard, that gets full and dumped every few days. No one in our house smokes. My parents bathroom always smells like smoke, my older brother used to smoke so my mom used to claim she dumped the ash in the toliet. Well I'm the only child left at home and from time to time it smells like ash. So I check the pack of cigs again today, to find that there are only 3 left (it was a full pack the first time I found it). How can they preach honesty to me when my mom sneaks around in the same way I did?

Any opinions?

Edit: Oh yea and I had suspected for a long time that my mom smokes cigarettes, I've even asked her before and she flat out told me no.