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Darkdrift

So i just wanted to say "Hey!" because i havent posted here in a while, i've been on the board(s) but not posting as much. but anyways, yesterday marked the first day of my one month break.

I actually decided on the break in the spur of the moment, the way things have been going lately (family stuff, some of you may remember my old post about it, its getting worse) I have been smoking a lot more. On a school day it's right after school, then again around 4ish, then a much larger session at night. Weekends can be a bit excessive, pretty much smoking whenever I can. Last tuesday i was in bed at about 1am and i was sitting there absolutly ripped out of my mind, and I thought to my self "Is this really how I want it, not wanting my high, but needing it?" So i developed the idea of a one month break starting last night (friday), the break is going to cover a bunch of areas:

- Reduce my very very large tolerance.
- Get my priorities in order.
- Save money.

My tolerance is ridiculously high, smoking almost everday, multiple times, for about 9 months. And I feel like im not getting "high" anymore, rather "good". and I miss the really good stones I used to get, the last time I got one of these I had to smoke a joint and 2 large blunts, between 3 people in one session. I need to figure out if smoking everyday is worth it, plus my girlfriend doesn't condone doing it as much as I do (she doesnt care if its like once a week, that kind of thing) so I usually don't tell her when I smoke, which i hate doing, especially because im crazy for her, so this month im going to really focus on hanging out with her and stuff. I have already notcied a difference from my break (both good and bad) the good is that i feel like my mind is a lot clearer, and when i hung with my girlfriend tonight i felt alot closer knowing i didnt have to hide it. the bad side effects has been a tremendous loss in appetite (sp ?). the last reason i wanted to do the break is that im spending easily $60+ a week on marijuana, and with the holidays coming up, i cant afford to spend all that. Overall im excited about my break seeing as it can only be good for me, although the first 24 have been kinda tough its been kinda nice, not always thinking about when/with who/where im going to smoke. In a month when my break is over im going to buy only a gram (as opposed to 1 or more oz's when i pick up) of some top notch headies, and roll a nice blunt with a buddy of mine, who is my usual toke buddy and i feel bad im going on a break because he does not have a usually toke partner now. When my break is over im not going to smoke as much, just when my gf knows, like at parties and with the guys and such. So yeah i dont really know how to end this because its so long but, thanks for reading :-) if you did.

 

green medicine

Hey man, breaks are good. Do what you need to do. Your friend will be there in a month if he is a true friend. You're proving to yourself that you are in control not it. The main thing is to do what you set out to do for your own self esteem. If you have a picture of what the perfect amount of smoking is in your head, then go for it. But don't let guilt take over if you slip up every once and a while. Self abuse and guilt are like evil twins that feed off eachother. I believe what you are searching for is a healthy balance and a mindset of taking care of yourself. and saving some money Trust your instincts and good luck!

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Viper420

Moderation in all things. Maybe you should follow your girlfriend's lead. Once or twice a week.

Iwasfn47

Nice. Congratulations on realizing that you needed a break, not everyone can do that, and those are usually the types of smokers that give the rest of us a bad image. They don't see that pot is getting in the way of somethings and they lose those things as a result whether it be a girlfriend, a job, other friends, or even the extremes of you house, family, etc. Good luck on your break, and definitely stick in there. There will times you feel like smoking or perhaps some of your friends will be smoking around you, but just pass. Marijuana is NOT physically addicting, so just pass. Sure, you'll feel like you want to smoke, but the facts are that you don't need to smoke, which is the key thing. Just remember, its all mental.

steakii

Let me just say breaks are worth it. I too used to smoke all day 9 days out of 10 for about a year. I took a break of about 30 days and since i just smoke about once every other week and i like it much more. I do miss the days of just getting baked as hell and chillin all day, but you save alot of money and smoking is something special, not something that you do so you can feel "normal." Good luck and dont give up.

 

Jake

Sounds like you're doing pretty good, got it all figured out for yourself. You don't need any help or advice....other than a good luck...

But remind yourself a few times that you're doing this for yourself, not for your girl. It's never good when people start giving favors that weren't asked for or weren't needed. There is no selfless deed, and favors demand retribution by their nature.

Don't lose your girl cause its just tragic when you lose two of them like that.

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