Bud&bluntman

It wasnt always like this, but for the past few months I feel really dependent on smoking. I smoked alot during the summer, and was outside with my friends nearly everyday. School started ( 11th grade ) and I become very depressed. I would always look foward to smoking on the weekends, but now, when i run out of weed i feel very depressed and I don't feel normal until I can smoke again.I have thoughts of suicide alot these days, which is very serious i guess. I dont no what to do, i justt feel empty, like i will never be happy again.