sammysmoker

this is a letter to my parents, I have to tell them about me smoking or else my moms friend is going to. im just trying to get them to not be mad.

Dear Mom and Dad,

There has been something I’ve held inside for a long time that I have never been able to tell you, because I felt like I have never needed to. 9th grade was the hardest year of my life, probably just because I was becoming a young adult as I still am. I felt useless and un-accepted by everyone, I was not confidant at anything, and I felt almost no connection with God. I was almost to the point where suicide was an option, but not quite that bad. A lot has changed from then.

Last year flew by, I was an average Christian kid that loved God and had decent grades. I felt like was able to make a life, but still I felt like there was no purpose. Over the summer I felt the same way and still being a good Christian kid, but I felt like there was something missing, something really important. So 11th grade started and I became a running start student, I felt like I was actually pleasing you guys and was a real part of the Kellogg family since everyone has such good grades and it seems like they are perfect at life. I was finally doing good and you were proud, but then I was tested.

Nothing felt right after 2 weeks of school, I didn’t feel good and I was feeling how I did in 9th grade. I prayed every night for things to change or for me to get the courage to talk to someone. I never did. About two and a half months ago, I felt completely useless, I didn’t feel suicidal because I was successful, but God really tested me. Trying to get away from these feelings, I had my first experience with marijuana.

I was expecting maybe just some relaxation, or maybe even a simple get a way from stress and life, but I was not expecting what happen. My first experience my mind was thinking in ways I had never thought before. I could not stop thinking about how God used so many people and how he could use me. I started thinking about how I have all these non Christian friends and how I am really the only one that has any concern for God at all. Well from then on I turned my life around.

I’ve started reading my devotion consistently and I even got the bible study back, I’m focusing on school more and I really do want to make a difference in my friends lives by talking to them about God. I’m already in the process. None of this would have happened if I didn’t try marijuana and open up my mind.

I know you probably have lost a lot of trust for me, and I completely understand and I’m willing to face what ever you have for discipline. I’m just saying that my life is changing and I feel like I know what God needs me to do. Marijuana has been my optimism and creates a pathway how to get into a deeper relationship and expand my wisdom with him. Reading the bible makes sense, thinking about what he has done and what he has yet to do is absolutely remarkable and I can’t even explain it.

I’m no where close to addicted if that’s what you are thinking, I have just tried it a few times and loved it because I feel like I’m God’s child and there’s a meaning to me living. I can stop right now no problem because I know you and dad probably don’t approve of me smoking, even though it has only had positive affects on me. Plus I made sure I’ve had all my school work done before hand so I can stay successful and be in more touch with God.

The reason I’m telling you all of this because at glens house on Tuesday Glen’s mom found out that we had smoked after we studied, and we actually did study. But she wants you to call her and talk to you about it.

I know your disappointed in me and I’m sorry, but honestly I do not regret at least trying it because my life is turning around. I’m getting a job, and starting to be more successful at school, I’m peaking my friend’s interest about God and hopefully I will have all of them coming to youth group soon. I promise you I didn’t smoke to be rebellious, or do start doing major drugs or anything. I’m not addicted and it definitely will not lead to anything harder, I have no interest and just scared to do anything else.

Well know you know the truth, and I’m sorry if I have hurt you in any way. Please don’t lose your trust because I promise you I’m in better spiritual shape then I have ever been before. I feel like I could do anything and tell anyone about God. This is the best I’ve ever felt and I feel like God is blessing me more and more because of the changes I have made.

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A2hempchild

This is a very well written letter. I am also a religious smoker. If my kid wrote a letter like this (don't have any yet but still) I would listen to them. That being said, I don't know your parents, so I can't say if they will listen to you. Many parents, especially religious ones, have been told from generation to generation that "marijuana and drugs are bad." This whole concept is from the prohibition of marijuana days in the 30s, but that is another topic. If your parents love and care about you and can see that marijuana isn't a harmful thing in your life, but actually a very positive thing, in time they may accept it. Expect them to be angry with you at first, it is a natural reaction, but if they have questions make sure to answer them truthfully so they can better understand you.

My only question to you is why not talk to your parents rather than write them a letter? I know it can be very nerve racking to talk to your parents about touchy issues like depression, drugs, etc. But it will make you a much closer family if you can sit down at a table and have a respectful discussion about your past feelings, and how you chose to deal with them.

Keep on toking and stay in school!

jerzysanchez

that was a well written, well worded letter.
i doubt they'll be disappointed, you seem to be going about this in a very mature manner.
if anything happens that they're mad at you or try to argue with you, which is natural if they don't know much about marijuana, just don't try to argue. just tell them it's your decision, and they can't change your mind about it. i'm not sure what "glen's mom" will want to talk about with them, so good luck with that.

as far as god and religion, i find myself pondering these things the most when i'm inebriated. i'm not so sure if many parents will think highly of mixing the two, because many put drug use and the devil's work hand in hand. it's just the stigma it comes with sadly.

good letter though, i wish had told my parents that way.

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MemphisBBQ

"I still act responsibly and have all my work done on time, this has allowed me to..."

Sounds a bit better for you

I'm all for the talking in person, but sometimes people can express what they feel better if they have time to think, and write it out. An aspect of an introvert may be that he or she often analyzes a situation and concludes their thoughts and opinions before responding. This is why i can lose an arguement to most people in person, but not so often through any texting medium.

My advice to you sammysmoker, don't dread it so much, chances are you may be anticipating it to be worse than it really is. You gotta remember they were kids once too and they may have grown up in the 70s.

We all know what happened in the 70s.

rasta farmer

christainity is a cope out fuck it

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goodgirl

"christainity is a cope out fuck it"

What you feel personally about Christianity is irrelevant to what the OP was trying to discuss with his parents. Clearly Christianity is important to his parents (and if judging the letter on it's face to him as well) so it is appropriate to express in his letter.

Your comment was unnecessary and uncalled for.

To the OP....your letter seems very reasonable and doesn't seem to hold unrealistic expectations about your parents reaction to your smoking pot. If I were to receive a similar letter from my son I would certainly be open to what he had to say (although in my son's case the Christian aspect of it would be coming out of left field). Of course none of us can be sure how your parents will react since we are unsure what prejudices or preconceived notions they may have about pot.

I would not want my teenage son smoking pot but if (or when) I find out that he has tried it I can only hope that he is able to keep the perspective of it that you seem to have.

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SS_Joey

I know how that feels man. Ive been exactly where you've been with school and with God. Ive only recently placed my faith back in Him and it all happened after i tryed weed kinda under the same circumstances as you. hope all goes well with your parents.