Rekcuf-Denots

Wow.

Horrible.

My goodness.

Turns out the words "First off, I'm going to need to you to hand me that device that you just pulled out of your pants" is not what you want to hear when you have a probation drug test...

My advice to all, if you are on probation, please just don't smoke... it honestly is the worst feeling knowing . .

A.) You've been busted (because you just got caught.)

B.) You've been busted (because you just failed.)

C.) You're going to jail.

D.) If you choose to fight option C you're looking at a hefty bill ($2,500 for me right now to keep my ass out hopefully.)

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I've been stuck since the incident simply replaying it over and over in my head, it's not something that really leaves you... not to mention I know my piss was diiirrrrrttyyyyyy (Theres really no good way to avoid full stream after you've had your ass handed to you..) I don't know what I'm going to have to do with my house (as I live alone) or my dog if I have to go away for a bit (State is pushing for 6 months) --- Please note that I'm a fairly "successful" (by societies standards) young man at only twenty years old and they want to lock me up for a first offense paraphenalia charge. . but the fact that I am on my own and making it I suppose makes it easier to just throw away the key.

(Also.. let it be known that I was on unsupervised probation but failed the first test with 21 ng/ml and had to retake it with one full day of notice.) Just because you can see through the trees, doesn't mean your out of the forest. In my case, when I saw through the trees they came to life and hurled my ass deeper into the forest, and then did it again. .

So here I am, urging, begging. . . Don't make the same mistake I did. . .

It's not worth it -- not the money, not the feeling, and not the prospect of jail. I'm too young for this, and no matter how old you are, you are too. If you're not too young, you're too old. There's no good time to make a new cell mate.

Sorry for the rant...

...But....

There is a light at the end of the tunnel for me.. I have one hell of a lawyer now that can hopefully keep me out, and I took a DT the day after my DT for court and was under 30 ng/ml. But the question is how is this possible? (I stopped smoking only 2 days before the DT for probation and I'm about 6'0 - 160 lbs - dont really exercise - smoked about 5 bowls of high grade stuff nightly for awhile...) and those results are with absolutely zero dilution and half stream to end... Only God knows I suppose (or maybe you do..?)

But finally.. this seems obvious.. but please learn from my mistakes. Know it's not worth it. Be strong enough to say no, not because your a blood belching vagina but because you're smart. Abstain. Until the United States stops being a leader of misinformation especially as far as marijuana goes, there will be consequences in most places if you are caught with it.

Sobriety is a biatch, but jail is her much longer, meaner sister.

Be good. Be safe. Be smart. (Seriously)